Confrontation.
August 15, 2010
Recently, I have realized how much I hate confrontation. I just hate dealing with it…I have always known this…but now if just seems really apparent. But, here’s the thing…I have a big mouth, so sometimes, it just happens. Yesterday was the mack daddy of confrontation. I can’t help but not to think and re-think about my actions and others yesterday.
Incident #1:
Log on to fb to check in before I started to get ready for the evening. I noticed this ignorant status update from one of the girls I went to high school with. Backstory: I really could never stand this girl…but whatever. She married someone from our high school who is now in the marines. They have two boys. And it is, the whole “God Bless Our Troops” and “Military Families are just better” propaganda forced down everyone’s’ throats they talk to. I support our troops…but just because I don’t agree with your viewpoints doesn’t mean I don’t support our troops or am thankful for what they deal with. I should have not played into the whole deal…because after all you can’t deal with stupid. That being said, here is the whole enchilada!:
Ashley This country is slowly getting worse and worse and it truly sickens me…
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Amy Wood Joslin likes this.
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Ashley I know…When I got online this morning, I noticed the headline being “Obama supports mosque at ground zero” and after I read it, I just wanted to go slap him. How degrading to the innocent lives lost. Seems like the only people he DOESN”T care about pissing off are his own.23 hours ago · · 2 peopleLoading… -
Sara I know, right? I can’t believe how insensitive he was by using the first amendment as his crutch. I’m fine with them wanting to build a mosque, but please, just do it elsewhere.23 hours ago · -
Heather And its such a touchy subject but I’m glad I didn’t vote for him… and I hope those who did are starting to realize just how fake he is! It’s a shame… we can’t even be patriotic anymore without it offending our own president! ABSURD!23 hours ago · -
Andrea Your ignorance appalls me. This is America-a nation where the ability of people of different faiths to coexist peacefully and with mutual respect for one another is what our country is founded on. And our commitment to religious freedom must be unshakable. The principle that people of all faiths are welcome in this country and that they will not be treated differently by their government is essential to who we are as a nation.23 hours ago · · -
Ashley
Andrea – I am saying we ban all Muslims from living in this country nor practicing their religion here. I am not ignorant to the fact that as Americans, we preach the right to practice whatever religion one chooses. However, I DO have a p…roblem with practicing this religion in a spot where innocent American lives were brutally taken by terrorist’s who based their idea’s from it. There are over 100 mosques in New York already…why is it ABSOLUTELY neccessary to build another one in that very location that is still so hurtful and raw to people, especially families of those who died? No, I am not ignorant, merely respectful of the dead and willing to stand up for our own rather than worry about offending everyone else.See More23 hours ago · · 5 peopleLoading…
- And then her husband (who I also went to high school with) gets on and writes this:
- If everyone could please direct your attention over here. I am now standing on my soap box. Pull up a seat this might take a while. You stupid liberal fuck heads kill me. You have no problem telling me how you feel about a situation. I stand there and listen. I don’t agree with you, but I stand there and listen. I (as in conservative) say how I feel and you think that you instantly have to jump up and run your stupid mouth. Do you know any Muslims? Have you ever even talked to one? And by “you” I mean Andrea. Well I personally have talked to one or two. Actually lets do this. I guarantee I have killed more than you have talked to. I will give you credit. Most Muslims are great people. I might even go as far as saying they are more kind and good hearted than most people you talk to on a daily basis. I do have a problem with them building a mosque where so many Americans died. I guess you also think it is ok for those shitheads from Kansas to protest military funerals. Now I am curious, do you have any friends or family that were ever killed by say a drunk driver? If so, I think that I might go build a memorial to that person next to their grave. That is about it for now. Pardon any grammatical errors
Then of course the status was bombarded with bs like, “My husbands a marine…and they just don’t know do they Ashley”. I could go on and on about all the ridiculous comments. Eventually her husband deleted his comment in fear of being court marshalled. Ha. Anyway, I didn’t want to cause a big explosion. But few things…1. Don’t post shit like that on facebook 2. How can you seriously be so ignorant?! 3. How can you expect to tell one group of people not to practice their religion? This is America….this is what our forefathers fought so hard to break away from, AM I RIGHT?!!!! Don’t be so hypocritical. URGGGHHHHHHH!
Incident #2
So after getting ready while I still fuming from the fb encounter I head out to a party back home. The night before I got to see A. And I can honestly say, it was the best night I have ever had with him. The evening was kind of a impromptu get together with my best friend and his best friend who will be getting married soon. I was already over at the house working on wedding invitation designs with my best friend. Then A and J pull up from the cow sale. The four of us talked and laughed to 2 in the morning. It was kind of weird bc all four of us have never been around each other like that before. But it was a great time. We were playing this game “kill-fuck-or marry” where you pick three people and then you have to decide what you would do. Ha, I know it sounds a bit immature, but it brought out some great laughs. Anyway, the entire time, A was holding my hand or touching my back, or looking at me. It was just nice. And then I ending the evening by a long make out session followed to a more heated encounter with A in the truck bed of J’s truck, ha. So, that night A asked if I would be a the party the following night. I told him yes, and he told me “good..bc I want to see you again”.
Night of the party (same day as the fb drama)-
Things were going good…I got to see some people I haven’t seen in a while. But not really getting to talk to A. So lets fast forward to him leaving. He told the small group that was left that he was leaving as he was staring at me. So, of course I follow him out to his truck. I know it was obvious that I was following him out to his truck to the others, but I didn’t care. I was kind of drunk and went up and said:
“Why are you leaving?”
A: Im tired
Me: Well you should stay for a little bit longer
A: No, I’m tired
Me: No…stay
I hate how whiny I am around him when I have been drinking!
A: Umm you just spilled your beer all down my back
Me: Oh my goodness…I am so sorry…I am kind of drunk
A: That is okay
We make out a bit
Me: Please stay…I thought we were going to get to finish what we started last night?
A: Where?
Me: I don’t know…stay
A: Well…I don’t think J was too happy about returning my hat to me this morning….I don’t think he likes what is going on (A left his hat on J truck, ha)
Me: Well…I don’t care what J thinks. I don’t have to listen to him…D does.
A: You are right…I just feel bad doing this right here. Plus the other couple will be coming out soon. I hate how we always sneak out at the end of the night to do this…I just don’t want people to get the wrong idea.
Me: Please stay and be with me for a little bit. I didn’t get to see you tonight. And I hate to break it to you…but this has been going on for so long that everyone knows.
A: (kind of just stood there for a minute realizing that everyone does know) I’m tired. But I want to come up and see you this week. And take you out. I don’t want to take advantage of you…it just doesn’t seem right.
-Now, if I was sober this would of been really sweet to me. But I was drunk, and I was not getting my way, it just pissed me off.
Me (in a bitchy tone): Ha, really?! When? I doubt it because whenever you say that I was hear some bull shit excuse on why you can’t come up. And you didn’t have a problem last night .
This statement pissed him off, which it should
It was just a bunch of back and forth of me pleading with him to stay and be with me….and him saying he was tired and didn’t want to take advantage of me…”because if he didn’t like me he would just bang the shit out of me right then and there,….is that what I wanted?”
That statement pissed me off for some reason…because as he was saying that he slipped his hand up my dress. Uggghhhh.
So our night ended with me being upset for him not staying and him being upset because “I always do this to him”.
So frustrating. I want to text him or call him. But it will be the same convo…”hey sorry about last night…I just really like you…and really want more out of this”
So confusing. How can Friday night be so awesome. And Saturday be the complete opposite?
I’m proud of you for standing up for what you believe in!!!! Debates like that always make me uncomfortable, but the husband was in POOR taste saying that he’d killed more Muslims than you’ve met. Fuck him. That’s so horrible to say. I thought the mission was the help build the armies and fight the terrorists, not necessarily the Muslim population.
I feel so bad for Middle Eastern people who have nothing to do with terrorist groups, who are just people like you and me who want to live and work in America without people thinking twice about them based on their appearance.